WE GOT THE CALL!!!!!!!

Hi everyone-we got the call from our agency! We have been chosen and matched with a birthmother this morning!!!PRAISE GOD!!!!
I will start from the begining. This weekend I was at a local craft show selling my quilts, my mom came up from four hours away and watched the girls for me. Then her and Les and the girls headed to their house for the weekend to help my dad with the cows. I came out later that night after I was done at the craft show, so I had plenty of time in the vehicle by myself (it was pure pleasure who knew silence could be sooo wonderful!) Anyways I was praying which I often do while driving and I started to cry and poured out my heart to God asking for Him to please let it be my turn to get the call. This was Saturday. Sunday night I had a dream that our agency phoned while we were staying at my folks, to say we had been chosen and that it was twins (this is of course what we have been praying for!) I couldn't get back to sleep after that and I kept praying this morning that God would let it be true! After lunch I phoned home to check our messages hoping that there would be an important call. I have done this for the last three months everytime we go stay at my parents. I even changed our answering message to include my parents phone number-just in case!! Well I get to the third message and it is Tina at our agency-she said she wanted me to call her back and gave me her cell number. hmmm I thought it is probably just to say she got our new profiles in the mail today. If it was important she would have called mom and dads. So I hit repeat to hear it again so I could write down the number. Then mom and dads phone beaped to say there was a call on the other line. So I quickly answered it and it was __TINA! She called to say we have been chosed my a birthmom in Indianna!!!!! I was sooooooooo excited I could hardly talk and I was trying sooo hard not to cry!
So this is the info that we have-birthmom 20 years old, due June 6th, lives with her mom and grandma who are supportive of her decision, birthfather not in the picture. She was looking for something different in a family and because we are Canadian she chose us! We were her first pick and she thinks we are adorable! So WOW!
Now here is a little bit of a weird twist for you. When we filled out our application for our agency we ticked little boxes of what race we would be willing to accept. We checked all the boxes for every mixed race and all AA. We decided to adopt from the US because we could adopt a newborn and because we felt that maybe the AA babies were not as wanted as some Caucasian babies. This info has come from numerous agencies and other people we trust...so why would we sit here on a wait list in Canada for a baby for ten years when it appeared to us that there were more babies available and we could help someone who might not be wanted. We were under the impression that there are more white families adopting than AA and that they are not always prepared to adopt transracially. So we understood it that there are lots of AA babies available and the fees are considerably less in some cases. For the most part this is true, there are however exceptions as well. Ok so here is the thing-we never checked the Caucasion box but guess what-our baby is supposedly Caucasion!
At first I was a little disappointed I think-not a lot mind you I am definatly THRILLED to be chosen, but you know when you expect something and then it doesn't happen it can be a little disapointing! But I have been praying about it all day and this is my conclusion-God obviously has a very important reason for us to be adopting a white baby instead. We never checked the box so techincally we shouldn't have even been shown to this birthmom. But we were. And she chose us. Hmmmm seems to me God can make a way for His plans even when it seems impossible. So I am completly shocked at the news today and it still hasn't soaked in completly-but know this-our baby is going to be born in five and a half weeks and I want to be the first to hold him/her!!! I never got to hold either of our girls for over an hour after they were born becuase of emergency c-sections-this baby (if possible) I get to hold first!! And I will not be nearly unconsious, nor puking, nor so weak I can't even hold my own head up-I will be standing there fully alert praising God every second for the precious gift He has given me!!! YAYAYAY
I am going to be a mom again!!!!

A few thoughts

Good morning everyone. This morning I have been up since just before six-I cleaned up puppy poo twice in the middle of the night-after I stepped in it of course. Then this morning I have cleaned up four more piles of do do. grrrr. Just having one of those mornings.
Now however there is good news, I am done painting!!! HURRAY!! My living room is done and it looks great, my kitchen/dining room too! Now all that is left are the two bathrooms which we are going to be putting cape cod style wainscotting up in to go with my house on the lake theme! So I actually feel like I am getting some where! The laundry is still piling up however as are the dishes-it is quite difficult to paint and rearrange furniture and keep up with the housework all with two kids and a puppy around !!
Ok I am done bragging about my accomplishments now and done whining and hoping for your sympathy lol.
On to adoption news. This week has been a rollercoster. We heard about a situation with an eight month old little AA girl and we phoned to find out if the agency was Hague approved. They didn't get back to us until yesterday-Yes the agency can work with us-but they matched the baby that morning. sniff, sniff. They even had a picture of her and she was just beautiful and she stole my heart and what can I say I really really wanted her! It is getting so hard to wait! And like I said this rollercoster ride is driving me mad!!
Now today I found out about another situation-a two month old AA boy in FL. So now I am once again waiting to find out if the agency is Hague approved or not. *sigh* So I guess I will keep you posted. Please pray for me I am struggling with this waiting on God thing!
I guess that is all for now. I could ramble on some more about inconsequential things but who really wants to know! So hope you all have a great day!

Letting go

Hello everyone-I have returned from my vacation and feel refreshed and ready to start new. I am glad I stayed in Alberta for two weeks instead of just one-because the first week I was soo homesick for my old way of life and friends and church family but by the end of the second I was anxious to get home and shake things up-so I decided since no one scrapbooks here-I am going to start a scrapbooking night-which I have already set up! Hurray! I have tackled my house work with renewed vigor I have even painted over the hideous pumpkin orange that my husband painted my dining room! (He was going for a burnt orange but he is kind of color blind!)
We even have a new addition to our family- an adorable puppy named Chap-I picked him-my very first dog!
I decided that our adoption will happen in God's time and I can no longer put my life on hold waiting for that phone call. I found out while in Alberta that the birthmom with four gave up just the twin girls-to another family. I was so heart broken but I thinkI am to the point now of just hoping God has an amazing situation for us-better that I could have hoped or dreamed. So right now I am just letting go of my anxiety, my ideas of where this adoption should go and enjoying my very blessed life!
Congrats to Justine on her referral! Praise God for His blessings! And to Courtney and Stephanie on their adoptions as well! Thinking of you all and praying for you as you face this world as aliens!